I want to ki_ _ you.

fill me up with your love

He said he has never seen someone who is sexier than me and who is born to be a lady and that made me feel so proud of myself.

I finally found the one to get married and I'm so convinced, relieved, happy, protected, and feeling his real, deep, true love.
This is the third time that I saw my brightest future, but when it happens, something so bad happens later all the time. This time, I really wanna avoid it.

やっと、ほんの少しだけ
自制心というものが芽生えてきたみたい。
遅かったけど、
一生自制心をもてないよりはましだよね。

My friend says the way I act and how I spend holidays are kinda funny, because I see a different guy every other day and sometimes they take me abroad to spend vacation.
She says I'm sick, literally sick. So I told her that if I'm sick then I've been sick since I was in high school because this habit started so long time ago.
Then she was shocked even I thought she knows me well. Her face made me realize I may wrong whole this time but how can I change this.