I want to ki_ _ you.

本当に気が狂いそう。
好きな人から愛情を感じないってこんな気持ちなんだ。初めて知った。頭がおかしくなりそう。
でも私も好きな人に愛情表現が全然できてない。彼がどう思ってるのかは知らないけど、もう終わりが見えてきたのかも。

今年に入ってから、いつもの2人以外とはしてなかったのに。
たった3週間会えないだけで、他の人としてしまったし、今だって別の新しい人を2人見つけてしまった。これってもはやいつまでも直らない癖なのかな？？
確かに性欲は強いだろうけど、そうゆう問題よりもなんていうか、きっともう心が腐ってるのかも。

Have you ever imagined me to tell you "I leave you"
I know you've never done that. I think it's time you imagined it and realized how much I mean to you.

I'm wearing denim today and when I looked at reflection of myself in the window I was kinda surprised, cuz my ass got bigger. So happy to see it get bigger and it motivated me to workout more.

I knew it, but I realized it again that I go crazy if I can't have sex at least once a week. now I'm with my dear future husband and my favorite one and feel happy about it. After this six months, both of them are getting busy with their work and leave me alone for two weeks. Now I can't stay calm and called my ex favorite and had a great time. You know we have a different way of destress. and this is my way.
and I'm wondering when I can find the other way of destress which fits me.